Monday, July 23, 2007

Hello again.


Moe in Urban Aran, originally uploaded by cmeknit.


When last we met, I had knit some monkeys.
I delivered those monkeys to my sister Moe in C.T.
Those monkeys were knit for her two boys.
She wanted something that they could hug at night when they were scared, when she was too sick, when she wasn't there.
That was quite and order to fill....but I did it and she loved them.
We stayed for a couple days. Planned a big birthday party for her hubby...had some laughs...helped her with some cleaning...watched the bravest person I have ever known battle each day with dignity and grace.
My visit was too short. I needed more time.

She left peacefully May 24th.

As expected as this was...I really miss her.

I haven't successfully knit a thing since.
There has been some attempts...a lot of gauge problems...I just didn't want to deal with.
The passion to knit seemed to have left...for a while...but I am still trying.

I actually have something on the needles...and it is working out.
Give me a day and I'll have some pictures for you;)

Sorry for the silence.
I'm coming back...

69 comments:

Pink said...

I am so sorry for your loss.

Emilee said...

Oh my, I'm so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts.

Alyson said...

I don't know what to say...but you have my very deepest sympathy, and you're in my thoughts. I'm so sorry.

Michelle said...

My thoughts are with you. I lost my brother 6 years ago, and I miss him just as much today. Take care.

pamela wynne said...

I'm so, so sorry. Take care.

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry for your loss. May her memory be a blessing to you and your family.

Ana

E to the M said...

Maybe it's OK to just swatch or make a garter scarf. Something that allows you to take comfort in the rhythmic click of the needle, the feeling of wool traveling between your fingers. Mindless knits are great for when your mind is somewhere else and the familiarity is its own kind of solace.
The monkeys were indeed a tall order but I bet the boys loved them and your sister felt a little better about going knowing that her boys would be so surrounded by love.
We're all thinking of you and your family. Welcome home.

Stella said...

Please, don't apologize. I'm so sorry for you loss but I'm glad that you were able to be there for her and her family.

AuntieAnn said...

My deepest sympathies.

Collette said...

I am so very sorry for your loss. My thoughts and sympathy are with you and your family.

pacalaga said...

I am so so sorry. My prayers go to you and your sister's family.

Teresa C said...

Your family has gone through a lot. I cannot tell you how sorry I feel for you all. I will be keeping you all in my prayers. Be well.

Donna said...

I'm so sorry about your sister, Carolyn, but I'm glad to see a post from you - welcome back.

chris said...

I'm so sorry for your loss - I'll keep you and your's in my thoughts and prayers.

Sharon said...

I'm so sorry for you loss. HUGS to you. Take your time, chica. We'll still be here.

--Deb said...

I'm so, so sorry....

Kris said...

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Rose Red said...

I'm so sorry for your loss - I hope you and your family are doing ok - from a stranger - welcome back, have missed you.

loribird said...

I had wondered where you'd gone... so sorry to hear... Take care and we'll be here when you're ready (so will the yarn!)

Dianna said...

I am so sorry for your loss, expected or not, it hurts. No apologies necessary for the silence. We are here behind you.

Sulafaye said...

I am so sorry. Love and prayers for you and your family.

knitintensity said...

It seems so inadequate to say I'm sorry, but I hope it gives you some comfort to know people are sending kind thoughts your way and to your sister's family.

Singular Stitches said...

I am so very sorry to read of your loss.

Amy said...

Oh, Carolyn, I'm so, so sorry. Praying for you and your family.

Lorette said...

I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

OneScrappyChick said...

Oh, I'm so sorry. I had a bad feeling something wasn't good when you hadn't blogged in so very long. ((Hugs and prayers to you)). Those boys are lucky to have you for an aunt.

bookwoman said...

I was so happy to see you back. I'm so, so sorry about your sister. Take care.

SusanSF said...

I am so sorry for you and for her family. It sounds like she was way too young to go. Will be thinking about you.

Penny said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my mom last September, and I still ache for her, still dream about her. My knitting mojo has come and gone several times in the last few months; I feel like I'm about to come out of a big slump soon... Please take care :)

Anonymous said...

Sending prayers for comfort for you, your family, and especially those little guys holding tight to their monkeys.

goodkarma said...

Carolyn, I've been wondering about you. I'm so sorry that your sister is gone. Please know that I'm thinking about you and sending love your way.

Robin said...

My deepest condolences to you.

Jeanie said...

My heart goes out to you and your family Carolyn. Take as long as you need. We will all be here if and when you come back. {{{{{{hugs}}}}}

Annie said...

My sincerest sympathy on your loss. Good to hear from you again...take all the time you need and we'll be here when you get back.

pat said...

I think everyone has been waiting patiently knowing life wasn't peaceful for you, but not knowing in what way - I am so sorry for your loss- I can't imagine the pain of losing a sister.
(and selfishly, I am glad to see that you are coming back!)

Gena said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. You and yours are in my thoughts.

Elena said...

Ahh...I can't believe it's true. First your brother and now your sister. How can it be possible?! I feel so sad even though I don't know you! I can understand your silence ... and lack of inspiration. All energy is probably for trying to cope...

Your beautiful sister may not be with you anymore but no one can take away the memory of her. All the past is still valid, and she still lives in you memories.

Chicago Jen said...

My heart goes out to you, your family, your sister and her hubby and boys. My prayers are with you all.
Funny, I was just wondering where you'd gone yesterday morning and here you are. Such heartbreaking news, and yet, we're glad to have you back. May you find peace and comfort in the days (and stitches) ahead.

trixie stix said...

I wish you some peaceful moments during this difficult time. Please take comfort in knowing we are all out here praying for you and your family each day. Extending my deepest sympathy's to you.

Jodi said...

What awful news. I'm so sorry for your loss.

Cathi said...

I am so sorry. I feel like anything I say is going to sound trite, like how special it must have been to spend those last few days with her, but I know that likely doesn't make this time any easier. Many hugs and thoughts to you and your family.

materfamilias said...

I'm so very sorry. I only know you through your blog (and I've only lurked so far and marvelled at your work), but I will nonetheless have you and your family in my thoughts.

Anonymous said...

My thoughts and prayers go out to you and all your sister's loved ones.
Barbara

Amy said...

I'm so very sorry to read this, Carolyn. We're here whenever you feel like coming back and joining us.

Jan said...

I'm so very sorry for your loss of your dear sister.

Maxmom said...

Once I found your blog some time ago I instantly added you to my blogroll because your knits were so amazing. Though we don't know each other I guess blogging allows us to feel as if we do. I am so sorry for your loss(es) and wish you and your family well.

knitnthings said...

No need for you to apologize - take all the time you need. I'm so sorry for your loss. I'll be keeping you and your family in my prayers.

Susanne said...

Oh, Carolyn,
I'm so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you and your familiy.

Anonymous said...

You've had a real heartache of a time. Go slow - knit simple to get better, You will. We will wait and cheer you on - ever so quietly. Be kind to yourself.

Liz said...

I cried when I read this post. I love your blog, I love to see what you are knitting, I wondered about your absence & am so sorry to hear the reason for it. Your sister looks so happy in that sweater.

earthchick said...

I am so sorry for your loss.

Thinking of you and your family.

jennifer brenneman said...

i'm very sorry for your loss. Your family is in our thoughts and prayers.

beth said...

I am sorry for your loss. Your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

jessie said...

My thoughts are with you.

Anonymous said...

I'm so so sorry about your sister... I will be praying for her, you and your family. Every week I was checking your blog, which I like so much and was missing... am glad you came back... Take care...
Paty Ballarin
Brazil
paty_ballarin@hotmail.com

Cecilia said...

I'm so very sorry for your loss. Will be thinking of you and your family.

Hege said...

I'm so sorry about you loss. Take care

tammy said...

I'm glad you feel strong enough to be back. Sending thoughts and good feelings to you.

Shanna said...

I am so, so sorry. I hope you know there is one internet stranger out there that is thinking of you and your family.

Tora: said...
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Tora: said...

You don't know me - but I read your blog often. I love your funny bone and sense of style - and I'm so very sorry about your loss. I just had to tell you.....peace to you and yours.

Tora in Chagrin Falls, Ohio

sue said...

Oh I am so so sorry. I read your scarf post first, and then realised there was another one. Your sister looks and sounds like a beautiful person, and I send my deepest sympathies to all your family in this hard time.

maureen said...

Dear Carolyn -
Please accept my deepest sympathy in the loss of one so dear...you sister, Moe. My thoguhts and prayers are with you and your family during this most dofficult time.
I sent you a lengthy personal email this evening and it was not able to be delivered to you (although the one on July 20 was able to be sent to the same address). Do you have a new email address that you can share?

Please take care of yourself - you are greatly loved!
Peace,
Maureen (Rhode Island - USA)

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. I've only lurked and admired your work. Regardless, I'll keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

Dharma said...

I am so sorry for your loss, for your nephews and your brother in law. What a hard thing for everyone.

Mel said...

I've been silently reading your blog and admiring your talents for several months. I'm deeply sorry to read about your sister.

She is radiant and beautiful in the picture you've posted. Thanks for sharing it.

WendyM said...

I was delighted to see you were back, then so sad to read the reason for your absence.

maureen said...

I am very sorry for your loss.

Wishful Knitting said...

I am sitting here in Italy crying for you and your family. I am a fan of your blog and was hoping your absence was simply due to crazy-mommy moments- I am saddened to know the real reason. I wish there were something I could say, but I know there is not. I am sorry. I wish it could have been different for all of you. I wish peace for your family- I wish you could hug your nephews every night. I will hug my girls twice as much tomorrow. Your beautiful sister is a reminder to all of us to love our children while we can. You're in my thoughts.